Wed, 13 Feb 2008 01:54:06 GMT

~~Fuck. Too much time of waiting.~~

Lil? We need to talk, baby.

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 17:33:49 GMT

I can't stop thinking about it

~~And obviously locked from Lil. Mmmky?~~

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 02:04:26 GMT

Just another monkey in a suit

~~Now I know how Rob feels~~

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 18:32:48 GMT

So everything's perfect. Where's the shoe?

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 06:56:36 GMT

Three words...don't tell her enough

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 01:50:14 GMT

If necessary, he can hate me

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 20:37:29 GMT

Somebody stop me. I'm going white-collar.

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 05:16:55 GMT

Life is all about the changes

RP for the_rob_hawkins and slusho_fiend

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 22:49:42 GMT

Rob: Rob had just pulled off his shirt and sat down on the bed to take off his shoes when the door flew open. He shook his head a bit with a sigh. "What?" He asked focusing on untying his boots.

Jason: Normally, Jason wouldn't do something like that, but he didn't feel like this had ended. Rob telling him goodnight...it just came so abruptly. "I hate this Rob. We're acting like how we used to. And we just can't do that."

Rob: Rob just stayed silent as he removed his shoes setting them aside. Reaching up he quickly ran a hand through his hair just staring straight ahead. Finally though his gaze moved to Jason. "I know. But I'm gonna be honest, you following me in here.. not helping."

Jason: Because he wanted to end this now. It was one of those examples where he was acting before he could think things through. They were doing okay, but then things had started going bad again. And it's not like things were doing good when they were okay. They kept on going bad again. Jason stopped at the foot of the bed. "Yeah, well, according to you, nothing I'm doing is helping, so I'm just continuing the trend."

Rob: "Okay, but keep in mind that not once have you just done the thing I've told you to do, which is just leave me alone." He said, his hand falling from where he had been wiping at his face in frustration with a clap on his leg as he looked at his brother pointedly now.

Jason: "You mean push me away. Rob, isolation is such a bad idea. We've gone through that before, but nothing was like this." He didn't trust his brother right now. His brother wasn't the type to hurt himself, but he wouldn't put that past him.

Rob: "Well obviously you nagging me every five minutes isn't working. So why don't we just give you leaving me alone a try?" He asked standing now out of pure frusteration at the entire situation they found themself in right now. Not even able to look at Jason right now, he turned to his dresser pulling out a new shirt and a pair of green and black plaid bed pants. Turning from Jason he slipped out of his pants quickly leaving him only in his boxers, before slipping on the bed attire easily, just keeping his back to Jason for a moment.

Jason: Jason rolled his eyes and sat down on Rob's bed. "I don't trust you if you're alone." Rob was supposed to be the reliable one where he was the random one. It had always been that way. He could usually guess his brother's responses, but not since they left the city. "You said you wished you were dead. I don't know how far you're willing to take that."

Rob: Rob took in a breath before letting it out slowly. 'I'm not going to kill myself Jason." He said moving toward the bed and taking a seat on it next to this brother. "Yeah, I know I said that." He picked a non existent piece of lint off of his pajama pants just for an excuse not to look at his brother. "I'm not that stupid... okay?"

Jason: "It doesn't take someone stupid to do something like that. Just somebody in love." Rob already was putting his life on hold. Grieving could go for a long time, and where Rob was , it was probably normal, but it was just hard to see his brother like how he was. He shifted backward so he could look at Rob. "Do you promise?"

Rob: Rob took a moment to let Jason's words sink in before finally glancing over at Jason with a little nod. "Yeah. I promise." He said, and he looked like he meant that. More than he had meant all the times he had told people he was fine in the past seven days.

Jason: Jason touched Rob's shoulder and squeezed it. "Thank you." He released a breath and then forced a small smile. "I don't know what I'd do if you weren't here. You're the only family I talk to most of the time." And if Rob did leave him, he had a feeling his relationship would be even more strained with their parents than it already was.

Rob: Rob actually gave a little laugh, relaxing a bit with the squeeze of his shoulder. Taking in a breath he kind of nodded, more to himself than to Jason. "Not going anywhere." He assured him looking down at his hands that were now clasped resting on his knees as he leaned foreward a bit. "So now what?" He had a feeling Jason wasn't planning on leaving his room yet, so

Jason: "That's what I needed to hear where you meant it." Because Rob could say it where it wouldn't mean anything. "How can you be that way anyway? I can't tell at all what you're thinking." Usually Jason didn't even let on that he cared what his brother was thinking. He'd shine Rob on and that's it. But, truthfully, he watched Rob more than he should.

Rob: "I did mean it." Rob said closing his eyes for just a moment before opening them again. "What do you mean? How can I be what way?" He asked glancing over his shoulder at his brother on the bed now before shifting back and placing his hands behind him leaning back on them easily as he looked at Jason.

Jason: "You're so unpredictable. You usually hate being unpredictable. Is that how things are going to be now? Not that I'd care either way," Jason's voice shifted from concern to more of casual tone, "but I'd like to know." He paused and then shrugged. "If you know."

Rob: "I don't know. I didn't even notice..." He said shifting slightly, his gaze faltering before returning to his brother. "Can't really control it. So..I guess I don't know what to tell you." With a slight moan he shifted again. He was so tired that his muscles were beginning to ache. His eyes closed for another moment before he blinked them back open.

Jason: The lack of sleep was really giving Rob hell now. And him too, for that matter. There was a weight of sleepiness on his mind. That's what I get for trying to keep him company, Jason thought. But he didn't regret what he had done. All in the efforts of helping his brother. He really did care too much. "Just go to sleep, Rob. You'll feel better." He pressed his hand into Rob's shoulder, pushing him against the bed, then leaned over him and pressed a kiss to his brother's forehead.

Rob: Rob felt himself being pushed back gently against the bed just before Jason pressed a kiss to his forehead. He honeslty couldn't remember the last time, if ever, that Jason had done that. "No.." The word was low, but pathetic in its own right. His eyes locked with Jason's pleading slightly to just be allowed to stay awake as long as he could manage.

Jason: Jason held that position over his brother and pressed his other hand down by Rob's head to keep himself steady. "What are you trying to prove? You can't escape the nightmares. And at this rate, you'll probably be so exhausted that you won't even remember that you were having them."

Rob: "Not trying to prove anything." Rob told him honestly. Maybe Jason was right. Maybe he had exhausted himself enough tonight that it would be okay if he just nodded off for a few hours. "Maybe." He said, voice low as he stared up at his brother. He could feel the heat radiating off of him, and it felt nice just then seeing as he was kind of cold at the moment. He paused before laughing a moment, a light mood passing through the darkness. "Have you ever thought of taking up a job as a space heater?" He asked reaching up to run sleepily at his eye for just a second.

Jason: "Then why is this being such a fight? I've never seen you so afraid of anything. And they're nightmares. They're not real." Outside of reminding Rob about the sad truth of life now. He actually chuckled. "Actually, I can't say that I have. One of those few jobs that have never come up." He moved his hand from Rob's shoulder and touched his cheek with the back of his fingers. "You are cool." Jason lowered his eyebrows. "If you want one, I wouldn't be opposed."

Rob: Rob just paused for a moment. "They were real once." He told him quietly. He didn't like being so shaken by the nightmares anymore than Jason liked seeing him this shaken. He closed his eyes as Jason's warm hand touched his cheek, before opening them again. "Why would you be opposed to heat anyway?" He asked with a little laugh, a smile actually dawning on his features for a second.

Jason: "But they're not anymore. Memories can't hurt you. We're not in that kind of danger anymore." Jason snorted. "It's not heat, but being your heater." He moved his arm and flopped himself next to Rob, mostly wedging himself between Rob and the bed and still keeping some space between them. Rob wouldn't normally accept this, he thought, but the sleep depreivation was playing on his brother's senses. That's why they called it punch drunk, he thought.

Rob: "No they can't, but they aren't helping anything." He said seemingly having settled down a bit. He glanced over at Jason as his brother lay down next to him. The warmth. It was comforting. "I didn't ask you to be my heater, just asked if you'd ever thought of being employed as one." ut he didn't move. The heat felt too good.

Jason: "When you're having them, do you think they're really happening?" Jason hadn't been able to get much out from his brother about them, but he hadn't pushed very hard, either. "Which you asked while you were cold and could really use a heater. The blanket wasn't helping," Jason said and pulled a little at the blanket on them. Lil liked his heat too, but he wasn't going to tell Rob that.

Rob: Rob nodded. "When... when they happen, its like I'm reliving it. I feel like I'm right back underneath that bridge with Beth. Face to face with.." His breathing had quickened slightly and he quickly tried to calm himself. 'It looked right at us Jason." He paused just collecting himself before moving on. "I appreciate the effort." He said not kicking Jason out, instead letting the older boy pull the blanket over them.

Jason: "You need to go in remembering they aren't real anymore." Jason wasn't going to pick at Rob's memories. He felt his brother's body tighten against him when Rob's breathing started going faster. Very slightly he touched Rob's arm with his hand. "Tell you what. You go to sleep and I'll be when you wake up out of it. And I'll be awake. Would that help?"

Rob: "No... I don't want to keep you awake Jason." He said adamently even though the offer sounded nice to Rob at the very core of him. "I'll be fine... don't worry about it, go to sleep." He told him shifting a bit to look at his brother.

Jason: "I slept in late today. I can do it. Just'll take a nap tomorrow and everything'll be great. Please, Rob," Jason's voice dipped low to a pleading tone. "I want to do this."

Rob: Rob just stared at Jason for a few more moment before sighing. "Alright." He said with a little nod. "Thank you." He added after a moment. He licked his lips gently before turning his head back to stare at the ceiling. Carefully he closed his eyes, apprehensive...but it didnt take long before he was drifting off. His body was more than grateful to Jason at that point.

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 08:25:29 GMT

Playing brother's keeper isn't so bad.

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 00:23:44 GMT

JJ Hawkins, the voice of experience?

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 18:35:43 GMT

Rob's not alone with the nightmares

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 00:30:25 GMT

Open mouth, insert foot here. FUCK!

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 21:00:04 GMT

That was some crazy ass shit